Okay, I had to stop and for some reason am unable to get the editing to work correctly to pick up where I left off. Sorry about the break in writing.
Just to close these thoughts out. I've only mentioned a few things that are rattling around in my head. The list goes on and on as I'm sure many of friends do too. How do I conclude these observations about myself? Well, its okay to have quiet. It's okay to have time to think, to be still, to listen to the holy spirit during the mundane things. Usually music during my quiet alone times leads me into communion with God. Half the time I'm grumbling and complaining about the task at hand but I am learning that I need to take advantage of these moments as gifts. Whether it is rediscovering a dusty talent, spending time with a young mother or hurting friend, washing the kid's clothes, or trying a new exercise such as yoga. Being still is a gift, it's not popular, it seems unproductive but it is necessary because my heavenly father created it.
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Be still...
Be still and know that I am God. I think that is where I am these days. I have more time to be still these days and I need to get to know him better. What does that look like for me? I need to listen to that quiet whisper, the prompting of my heart to reach out to that friend I haven't crossed paths with in years or months. I need to explore the gifts the Lord has bestowed upon me. I have many things I would like to try but am scared of failing. Isn't God who created me? Well yes, and if so who am I to doubt that he wouldn't want me to explore possible gifts that could ultimately be used to glorify him. I sound so Presbyterian at this point, chuckle with me...it's a good thing.
As I type I am listening to Pandora radio. I have chosen the Morman Tabernacle Choir. Most of it has been acapella coral music. I think this is what heaven will sound like. I use to sing in a choir most of my life until the kids arrived. I miss it, but I will be still and enjoy the purity of classical music through Pandora. Some of it brings tears to my eyes.
Another wonderful tool I have been using to get to know God better is through a Bible app, thanks Sarah Gravesen, that reads to me. I can have different versions read to me and I find that I like it. I pay better attention and don't drift into lala land as easily. I really have been trying to read the scripture our pastor is going to preach from on Sundays the morning before I go to prepare my heart. I'm not always on my game, let's be realistic now, but I am quieting my heart to know him.
I've just switched pandora to the Tallis Scholars. Look them up..it is well worth your time. I think if I could hear music like this on Sundays I would be a blubbering mess. Be still...be still...the voice is an amazing gift to edify the Lord with.
Sewing, I probably should have majored in home economics. I love all things domestic except cleaning.can't be great at everything :). I went to some counseling before I had my third child. I just needed to sort through my life as I felt overwhelmed and wanted to prepare, as best one can, to care for three little ones five and under. She had me explain myself and I think one of my aha moments was fear of failing. As best I can remember, I came out of there feeling empowered to not let that fear hold me back from discovering who God created me to be. He gave me a mind, a desire, a curiosity to learn to sew. Just do it as children of the 80's learned from Nike. So, I signed up for a sewing class and bought a low end BMW machine, a Bernina basic model sewing machine. I have sewn a few curtains, created a bear for Charlie, and helped make bags for orphans in Haiti. Other than that the Bernina is collecting too much dust. I think I will get it out and try some fun projects.
As I type I am listening to Pandora radio. I have chosen the Morman Tabernacle Choir. Most of it has been acapella coral music. I think this is what heaven will sound like. I use to sing in a choir most of my life until the kids arrived. I miss it, but I will be still and enjoy the purity of classical music through Pandora. Some of it brings tears to my eyes.
Another wonderful tool I have been using to get to know God better is through a Bible app, thanks Sarah Gravesen, that reads to me. I can have different versions read to me and I find that I like it. I pay better attention and don't drift into lala land as easily. I really have been trying to read the scripture our pastor is going to preach from on Sundays the morning before I go to prepare my heart. I'm not always on my game, let's be realistic now, but I am quieting my heart to know him.
I've just switched pandora to the Tallis Scholars. Look them up..it is well worth your time. I think if I could hear music like this on Sundays I would be a blubbering mess. Be still...be still...the voice is an amazing gift to edify the Lord with.
Sewing, I probably should have majored in home economics. I love all things domestic except cleaning.can't be great at everything :). I went to some counseling before I had my third child. I just needed to sort through my life as I felt overwhelmed and wanted to prepare, as best one can, to care for three little ones five and under. She had me explain myself and I think one of my aha moments was fear of failing. As best I can remember, I came out of there feeling empowered to not let that fear hold me back from discovering who God created me to be. He gave me a mind, a desire, a curiosity to learn to sew. Just do it as children of the 80's learned from Nike. So, I signed up for a sewing class and bought a low end BMW machine, a Bernina basic model sewing machine. I have sewn a few curtains, created a bear for Charlie, and helped make bags for orphans in Haiti. Other than that the Bernina is collecting too much dust. I think I will get it out and try some fun projects.
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