Be still...

Be still and know that I am God. I think that is where I am these days. I have more time to be still these days and I need to get to know him better. What does that look like for me? I need to listen to that quiet whisper, the prompting of my heart to reach out to that friend I haven't crossed paths with in years or months. I need to explore the gifts the Lord has bestowed upon me. I have many things I would like to try but am scared of failing. Isn't God who created me? Well yes, and if so who am I to doubt that he wouldn't want me to explore possible gifts that could ultimately be used to glorify him. I sound so Presbyterian at this point, chuckle with me...it's a good thing.

As I type I am listening to Pandora radio. I have chosen the Morman Tabernacle Choir. Most of it has been acapella coral music. I think this is what heaven will sound like. I use to sing in a choir most of my life until the kids arrived. I miss it, but I will be still and enjoy the purity of classical music through Pandora. Some of it brings tears to my eyes.

Another wonderful tool I have been using to get to know God better is through a Bible app, thanks Sarah Gravesen, that reads to me. I can have different versions read to me and I find that I like it. I pay better attention and don't drift into lala land as easily. I really have been trying to read the scripture our pastor is going to preach from on Sundays the morning before I go to prepare my heart. I'm not always on my game, let's be realistic now, but I am quieting my heart to know him.

I've just switched pandora to the Tallis Scholars. Look them up..it is well worth your time. I think if I could hear music like this on Sundays I would be a blubbering mess. Be still...be still...the voice is an amazing gift to edify the Lord with.

Sewing, I probably should have majored in home economics. I love all things domestic except cleaning.can't be great at everything :). I went to some counseling before I had my third child. I just needed to sort through my life as I felt overwhelmed and wanted to prepare, as best one can, to care for three little ones five and under. She had me explain myself and I think one of my aha moments was fear of failing. As best I can remember, I came out of there feeling empowered to not let that fear hold me back from discovering who God created me to be. He gave me a mind, a desire, a curiosity to learn to sew. Just do it as children of the 80's learned from Nike. So, I signed up for a sewing class and bought a low end BMW machine, a Bernina basic model sewing machine. I have sewn a few curtains, created a bear for Charlie, and helped make bags for orphans in Haiti. Other than that the Bernina is collecting too much dust. I think I will get it out and try some fun projects.